Thursday, 17 March 2016

Can You Really Make A Difference ?

It might sound crazy 

I know this sounds really crazy 
but I lay there night after night 
watching all these films 
and I think to myself 
the struggle and lives that people lead 

I watched a film called 
prayers for bobby 
and it really puts things into perspective 
for life in general 
I never really had anyone 
to talk to properly about being gay.

There are millions of people out there 
all in the same boat 
and having someone to talk to 
and listen to you can 
really make a difference 
I never really talk to people about my life 
is it because I'm scared to 
but there are so many ways out there for people too and I fel like I need to do something bout it 

I journal my life and write every feeling and emotion I feel down for people to look back on in the years to come 
I don't try 
maybe that is my weakness 

Why is it so wrong ?? 
It's not I think but 
I don't take the time out 
to do anything about it 
I just can't seem to get a focus on anything and why 
cause I never had anything to focus on 
being wrapped up in others things
Like life 
and friends
 I have missed the biggest part of my life 
I am approaching 32 this year 
and have nothing to look back on 
and think that I made any real contribution to the world in any way shape or form 
there are people out there 
fighting everyday 
Whether it being 
human rights 
The right to marry 
The right to be with the one you love 
But in an unforgiving world it is an up hill struggle ? 

Staying in most nights is probably not good for you or socialising with people 
like myself has kept me sheltered 
is it the scaredness of a person enough to make things better ?

I  Suppose blogging everyday is a good way but if no one reads or hears about it then what is a person to do ?
pack up and move away 
run and hide from problems 
or doing something about it 
as I write this I have all the best intentions of trying to do better for myself 
but I know that within a couple of days or weeks it will be a forgotten piece of writing drifting about in the ether somewhere 

Where is the logic in that ??

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